We had an amazing baby shower! So many amazing friends and family showed up! I am so excited for the birth!
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I wanted to say WELCOME BACK to our blog! It has been around 2 years since we last posted and of course many changes have occurred but too much to go back on! So here we are today - pregnant with our little love Jennah!
Today I went to Yoga and Lamaze with my love, Jennah and Marie! We were super excited to announce that we are pregnant with baby Jennah!!! We wanted to find a super special way of announcing it and we did it at Disney golf! It was perfect! We played the entire round and we were so super antsy to finish and we went up ahead of the kids and SURPRISE! Ahh our first checkup! Doctor said I am doing well but the baby was growing fast! She put our due date to 3 weeks ( it would equate to around 8 months in RL). I usually carry my kids to about 3 weeks but this one seemed different and her rapid growth has concerned me since most of my kids have been tiny! We are back and I SO LOVE THAT MAN!! Anywho - we renewed our vows on Feb 20th 2016!! It was our 10 year renewal! Here is the proposal video: https://vimeo.com/155198121 It was quite the experience, an emotional one at that! It all started on Wednesday night, I had returned from some clothes shopping and continued working on a house that I was building. All a sudden, I started getting some pains in my stomach: Jill Caldera's contractions have begun, see a clinician when they are getting stronger and closer together!!! Jill Caldera's contractions just intensified Gattz wasn't home at this time but luckily Gaston had his emergency cellphone to call on his big brother Peyton. They rushed by my side and lifted me up onto my bed as they texted Gattz to hurry up home. I called the doctor and she was very calm on the phone and told me to keep an aspirin between my knees to hold out on rushing in. Supposedly this will help tell if it is false labor or not, said my "What to Expect When Your Expecting" book. As I was reading, my dad was holding my hand and giving me some encouragement. I was able to stand up and stretch a bit with the help of my dad and my little one one. I took a walk into the nursery which was still missing a few things! This was all happening too fast and we were not ready! As I settled into the nursery to gather a few last things for the trip Gaston was so cute, he jumped on the step stool to examine my belly by listening to it. I could tell he was getting nervous, so I let him listen to reassure him everything was going to be alright! After the short walk, I was exhausted and in even more pain. These contractions were now at 2 minutes apart. I laid in bed and tried my best to close my eyes and do some deep breathing. Gaston climbed right on top of me (well off to the side, to protect the baby) for some snuggles and I could tell by how clingy he was, that he was just as nervous as I was. I tried my best to reassure him and together we closed our eyes and took some deep breathes together. We ended up napping for a bit together and the pain became really intense just in time for Gattz to get home! We arrived at Harborview about 15 minutes later and the entire staff was waiting for us to arrive. They quickly rounded up the entire family into the waiting area and provided toys for the kids to play with. I was helped upstairs and changed into my gown then quickly placed in the water. We chose water birth for all of our children and we love the experience and the lack of a mess to clean up! Gaston and Gattz suited up into their scrubs and as Gattz held my hand and touched my hair, I was finally able to concentrate. Moments later, our beautiful baby boy was born! *happy tears all around* Everything went perfectly and was all very much a dream. Although he did not make it to his due date in June, he made his way through in May! His first snuggle as Zachary! Below: Gattz showing the baby to our family <3 Our Letter to Our Son: To our little boy. You were just born today. One of the first things we learned about you is that you didn't want to wait to see us. You were born 3 days early! But we are so happy you were born today as we really wanted to see you too. Perhaps it was the glow of the fireplace that last magical night at camp or maybe it was the wish come true as we sat there and spoke about the son we have been looking for. Whatever it was, it was written in the stars that just weeks later, we would be able to call you -ours. You were everything we were looking for, you were the sparkle in our eyes just waiting to be seen. You are a piece of our family puzzle that makes it whole. Our hopes and dreams for you is that you always follow your dreams, have an open heart to the world. There may be bad people that will want to break your heart, but know that there are so many more that will want to hold that little heart of your and make it grow with happiness. When you want to go on adventures, to save the city from evil, know that you are not alone. You have your siblings by your side and your mom and dad. Together we can defeat any evil because as a family, the love we have can beat anything. Whenever you may falter, know that we will always be there. We are always your ally, never your enemy, no matter what. We love you, Mom and Dad Below is his song :) So today I finally had some time while the kids were at school to update the blog. Baby Zachary's (Gaston) furniture came trickling in this week which we are so happy about because if they waited any longer, he would have been here! I have been feeling quite well the whole pregnancy other than some strong cravings of cheese doodles again! It seems with every pregnancy there is something cheese related that I crave! It is no wonder why Collin came out having an allergy to lactose! We found the hospital and doctor we will be delivering with this time and we are so very excited. We wanted something very cozy and private and traveled hours away to find a clinic that gave us just that. The doctor is a wonderful woman who has been very thorough and we finally have a date set! June 1st our baby son will be born!! We are so very excited but we have so many things to get done before he his here! We still have to make up a get up and go bag in case he decides to get here early, still have a lot more things to buy for him too! Although we did do some shopping and I washed his tiny clothes today and hung them all up! I bought him a ny yankees jersey because I know at this age, I don't have to worry about him telling me no! I included a photo Gattz took today of the new nursery setup! We have a few more special touches we are adding....Gattz is hammering away on the new shelves as I type! We thought long and hard about what hopes we have for our new son. I mean, we know he will be the best batman he can be and help a lot of people in his life but who is he when the cape comes off, so to speak! Gattz and I reminisced on the times we did this when our other kids were being born which of course was a good excuse to take out the baby albums! *Editors Note* I never put the song in the middle of the blog but I found this after it and it was perfect! It was exactly what I was feeling when I wrote this!! Give it a listen :) and feel free to read below I chose a few photos to share here, the first is when we were first pregnant with our twins Liam and Cara.... I remember this shoot like it was yesterday, our best friend Nevy had set this up as a surprise for us and they came out so beautiful! I remember as we sat there waiting for the photo to be finished (and freezing) that we talked about what we wanted for our twins (which back then we did knew we were having a son but not sure of the others gender!) and we both smiles and tossed some traits back and forth. I had hoped the twins would have inherited my love of music and dancing traits which seems funny now because Liam has two left feet - shh! Cara can hold her own but that's only because she is so goofy, that no one around her would even mind if she didn't know how to dance! Gattz really hoped the twins would play video games with him and he would be able to show them all about computers. Well, we now know they heard their dad loud and clear! They turned out to be deep thinkers aka super geeks in a way that mostly comes from Gattz! We went home that night and wrote our child a letter, one they can open up much later and know how these first time birth parents were feeling at the time! (A real snippet of the letters we wrote for Avenge for every single year we have had him) "8-26-06 Its been a couple days now since you entered our world. Me and Gattz have been waiting some time for you and the day arrived. There was some issues with the delivery but we pulled it out - Seems I didn't eat enough vegetables and your color didn't come out right. I want you to know, you were made with lots of love and time...We waited for the right time to have you enter our lives. Well my son - never doubt your place in this world...Never doubt that it is within this families heart. You will always have a place to call home and always have parents who will be here with open arms to hold you and make everything alright. Love Your Mom Jill and Your Dad Gattz" This photo here made me laugh so much because my makeup was so thick and no one told me! Pregnant Brain obviously! So this photo that Gattz took, I chose because it was such an experience to be pregnant at the same time my sister was. This time I knew we were having twins again!! I am a twin and my mother is a twin so we knew this was a good chance of happening but TWO sets of twins! No one had any clue that was going to happen..but it was happening and we were thrilled! We knew it was going to be a boy and girl again and this time I felt as if I was a pro to the pro-cess! We again contemplated all the fun facts about who these children would grow up to be. I had thrown the first hope in there, that they would be outgoing since our first twins seemed to be more shy as babies. I think Collin soaked most of that in as a baby! He always wanted to be the center of attention starting from when he was in my belly...when they did the sonogram of the twins, he moved his face in front of Kenzie! Gattz said maybe he will end up being an actor! We had chosen every little thing out for the twins including who would deliver them. We chose to go with a very popular hospital that was owned by Lamont and Rowanda, (who was very special to Kenzie and passed away later that month in RL - the twins were the last children she delivered). The overall experience of the pregnancy and birth will be forever be engraved in our hearts. As the twins grew, we came to find out we were right about Collin and actually Alexis is very shy lol but she did get her moms dancing and sport talents! As we prepare for our new son, we know that no matter what we hope for him that he will along with the other children, be the good this world needs. Being a person who breathes love and practices it...that is truly all we really want. On a side note to all of this, the process of birthing our children has become a very special moment for all that are involved. I til this day love and care about my birth siblings, as if they were born with me in RL. This is something very deep for us, down in our core and every fiber of our being in SL and RL.
I hope our children will always take a few things from going through this with us, that no matter where they go they will always have a sibling bond that is different than many others and that two people heads over heels in love with one another loved them so immensely that they chose them. I am confident as we start the process of adoption in real life that our children have given us tools that may have started virtually but became very real. Perhaps they taught us the biggest lesson of all...that we could love another person who was born to someone else, enough so to call them our own. It has been a bit since I have written, mostly because we had to transform my office into a nursery, so I have been without a computer for a bit now! I had such a lovely mothers day, I woke up to a huge breakfast in bed made by my kenzie, complete with spilled orange juice, gray toast and peanut butter covered bacon! I also received a beautiful frame by all my children and a lot of plates \o/ YAY! I love plates and have a collection! My Godchildren made one for me tooo!! |
AuthorI am a wife to the best husband ever, Gattz Gilman and wear many hats in second life but my favorite one is being a mother to our 3 wonderful children. Archives
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